Life's a trip, why not now?

Hey y’all, I’m back and explaining my story for everyone to be heard. So over the last few months, I developed schizophrenia and now I have come back to reality. Reality is hard thing to describe once you had a schizophrenic episode, because the two seems so real, that it’s hard to decipher which one’s real or not real. I’ve come to realize that I’m not the center of the world, and if I start thinking that way, it only leads to self-destruction to myself, and those around me. One concept that I’ve realized is that life goes on, people miss you, but they always end up surviving albeit flourish whether you’re there or your not. It’s a sad truth, but we’re just one cog in a machine, if that cog is missing we drop a little bit, but our amazing human minds find a way around that mess and continue to turn the wheels. So, take it easy on yourself, no pressure, we’re all beings just as yourself. No greater, no worse, neither rich, nor poor, all the same in the circle of life. Human beings, that’s what they call us, we are all individuals and we combine to form one unit, the human race. Not to say we’re any greater than the animals around us, but don’t think of yourself too highly or else you’ll just end up disappointing yourself. We live and act accordingly to our own rules and morals, where we get these morals from, God knows??? But just live your life to its all, try not to worry yourself because we all struggle from the same problems?? Life is what you make of it, so always do your best, give it your all, give your heart, your 100% to everything that you do, so you’ll live with no regrets, and you’ll be able to realize the best qualities in yourself, and the best quality in others as well. All I can say, is good day, good morning, and smell the breeze in the air, you’re in for one helluva ride called life.

The past is past

When life becomes premature. Sometimes very forced. You have to remember that there is light at the end of the tunnel. You have to hold out faith that you’ll get better and return to the great self that you are.

I didn’t mean to cry on memorial glade, I meant to be there for my friends, to help those who I’ve hurt, to move on from the past. I believe I achieved my goals and learned more through my journey, but I’m ready to move on from the past, and find my place in the world in an unknown place we call the future.

Don’t let the past hold you back, instead, let the past help you achieve even greater things because you can learn from it and not fall into the same traps as you did before. Take time to remember those who’ve helped you, take time to remember those who’ve hurt you, and be at peace with yourself knowing that all these experiences made you…you.

You are the source of all your problems and the source of all your happiness

You are the source of all your problems, and you are the source of all your happiness. You create your own reality, and other people are just representations in it. This world is made for no one in particular, so if you take charge of your life, you also take charge of the world you live in. 

Happy

You know how people say they just want to be happy. Then, just be happy, choose to be happy, it’s not something that’s outside of you, rather its inside us all.

Life ain't a box of chocolates, but that's the beauty of it

Life ain’t a box of chocolates. It kicks your ass around, makes you feel like shit, brings you back down to earth, but that’s the beauty of life. Because our life is constantly being dragged down by our own intuitive thoughts, we have to focus on appreciating the journey of living rather than basking in the glory of our accomplishments. I do NOT define success as a continual set of stepping stones that we have to climb over to reach our final destination. Stop thinking in terms of “I need this [GPA, friends, money, material wealth] in order to be [happy, successful, well-liked]. Anything that is conditional is never everlasting. Such as love, that’s the only thing that holds true time and time again. Love from friends, love from your loved ones, love from family, and love from god. That’s the only thing that is meaningful in our very existence.

Life is hard, but that doesn't mean it's not worth living.

People are curious beings

People are curious beings, let them be. Share your life with them, and in return they will share their life to you as well.

In Berkeley, sometimes this innate curiosity turns into skepticism, and later full-blown in-group/out-group mentality. The saying “curiosity killed the cat” only applies to those who are NOT open to change, to those who are NOT open to new ideas, and people. But be respectful of others, be independent in your own thinking, and most of all, don’t expect anything out of life, just take what comes, and enjoy it for what it is.

Valentine's Day

All this hate about single’s awareness day pisses me off. Valentines day is a commercialized holiday like every holiday in the world. Restaurants and boutiques jack up their prices of roses/flowers/meals because they want to make a big buck off a societal ascribed appreciation day. Instead of hating Valentines day for making people feel left out, why not use this day as motivation; and in my case, motivation to work up the courage to ask a friend out on a date when you both know you’ll be suffering in your own misery if otherwise. Why not use life’s challenges as a tool, to make yourself better, make yourself into the person you want to be. It sucks being left out during the holidays, but that doesn’t have to be the case. We all have the power to change our life situation, it’s up to us whether we choose to act and correct our inadequacies, or we can just continue to bitch as moan about the unfair hand fate has dealt us. Sometimes you have to take fate into your own hands by doing the unconventional, and let an even higher power sort out your life.